Don’t get me wrong, I am happy in my relationship – for the most part – I’ve been in it for the past 2 and a half years and don’t have much to complain. He’s the sweetest guy and treats me well, and faithful as can be. I am insecure in relationships and tend to be jealous easily, so the fact that my boyfriend gives me absolutely nothing – NOTHING – to worry about (doesn’t even watch porn, never texts other girls ever, doesn’t go out and party) is a true saving grace. I want to have children in the next few years and am certain that he will be a wonderful daddy to our kiddos.
Nonetheless I won’t lie and say that I have never felt anything for anyone else.
There’s Ian, a colleague I had hit it off with when I first started working where I work. He taught me pretty much everything at work, and we became friends, always hanging out at work during the breaks with a couple of other teammates. I felt something at first because he used to make me laugh so much, and I loved being around him. The more I got to know him though, my feelings died down a little, because I began to see traits I wasn’t a fan of and, well, I’ve been in a relationship all along after all. The feelings did spark back up a couple times over the course of us working together (1 and a half years at this point). Besides, we haven’t been friends for 9 months now. Why? Can’t say for sure what happened, but he stopped talking to me (and removed me from social media) after I said something that appearently hurt his feelings (a joke about him). I’m sure there’s more to it, but we never talked about it because he has absolutely refused to be on talking terms with me since then (even though I’ve apologized several times). He has since become one of my supervisors, recently, and only talk when I have a work related question. That’s the gist of the whole situation with Ian, though I’m sure he will come up in my future posts.
My job recently hired an additional supervisor for our team recently, Jacob. About 3 weeks ago. I thought nothing of him at first. I was on a 2 week vacation recently and when I returned I still thought nothing of him. We interacted a couple of times and I thought he was a delight, with a fantastic personality. Dark hair and a full beard, not my usual type but definitely pretty cute. It’s weird how a switch can go off in my brain seemingly over night and I suddenly have a crush on this person. Literally I left work one afternoon a few days ago, and for some reason did not stop thinking about Jacob. I knew right then where this was headed. Yup, full on crush. I heard someone say he’s married, and he does wear a ring. We have had nothing but entirely normal interactions, no flirting or anything of the sort (I dont even know if he finds me attractive in that way). In fact, today I thought he surely must be annoyed with me because I’ve questioned him several times about the fact that one of my colleagues isn’t doing his job (avoids being on the phone with our customers – we’ve just recently implemented phone service in our job) and how he (Jacob) lets it happen/ doesn’t say anything about it, meaning others on our team suffer because of the colleague’s laziness.
At the end of today’s shift though, we were in the elevator together and made some smalltalk, and he didn’t seem annoyed with me at all.
LoveLife Chronicles 